I discovered over the weekend that the scale I use every day to weigh myself is not working properly anymore. I’d been experiencing a few glitches with it over the last several months which meant weighing myself multiple times in a row to see if I hit the same number two or three times so knew that this day was coming. However, seeing my weight climb back up by several pounds in a few days had me worried that maybe my scale wasn’t broken and I was just losing all of my progress. I’ve ordered a new scale and am hoping that my defunct scale was wrong and that I’m still right on track.
This came after seeing a full 11lb loss on the scale before I finished my 8th week of macro coaching and also scaling back on my training due to piriformis syndrome flaring up. My left hip felt locked up in the back, my glute was extremely tight and I was feeling sciatica symptoms beginning to travel down my leg nearly to my knee. Needless to say my squats last week felt like garbage and the discomfort I was feeling meant I backed off completely from my deadlift. This is the second time I’ve missed that specific workout in the last month or so and it scares me that I am potentially losing progress but I know that holding off while I got the issue corrected was the right decision.
I went to a chiropractor for the first time in my life and I have to say the improvements have been pretty dramatic – especially considering the discomfort I felt was starting to get in the way of my sleep, was affecting my mood and my overall feeling of wellness. My chiropractor performed some ART across my left glute and hip to break up some of the locked in feeling that I was having. Everything was very tender and uncomfortable and sensitive to the touch but I knew I had to suck it up and just get it done. I didn’t realize how bad the issue had become as I am prone to just ignoring my issues and not seeking professional help for them. I’ve had three treatments since and I’m able to move a lot easier, my sleep has been restored and I am cleared to start doing some lighter lifting again. I am hoping after my next 2 sessions I can get back to business as usual.
Between having a broken scale and having to slow down with my workouts I have started to feel some of my resolve wavering. Seeing a 4lb gain on the scale (whether real or just a result of the scale calibration) has started to creep in the back of my mind and scare me into thinking that I might not be able to meet my goals. It has made me question if I’ve really been as successful as I thought I was. It has made me wonder if I’ve just been tricked into thinking that I am losing fat and that I’ll come solidly under my weight class at the time of my competition. Combine this with just how exhausted I was feeling after feeling pain for a few weeks in a row and you can imagine that my emotional state has started to lose a little bit of it’s solidity.
I am trying to look at this through a different perspective. I’m asking myself if my food choices were solid, if I drank enough water, if I did everything else I could to make sure that I was on point. I can honestly say over the last week the answer is “No.” So what am I going to do about it? Well… I’m going to have to go back to carrying a notebook around with me and taking notes through the day. I need to recover the laser focus I had during my first six weeks of coaching. I need to get back to walking more often, making sure I am nailing all my accessory work and not skimping on the heavy lifting that I know I have to do to get stronger. At this point the strength doesn’t matter as much as the weight loss. I already know that whatever total I put up at the meet doesn’t matter because it’s my first time going but I won’t be able to put up a total at all if I can’t compete due to my weight. So now I have to shift my gears and make sure that my food is clean, that I am supplementing intelligently, that I am walking a LOT and that I do the best I can in the gym based on my limitations with my hip. Digging deep and getting on track is something that is always a challenge for me when I feel roadblocked so I am hoping that I can continue to be the best version of myself and do what I know I have to do in order to succeed despite anything I perceive as holding me back.
Fingers crossed. I know I have it in me.